Bright and Shine!

Its a simple scenario that we have heard before that i experienced recently.
When we pray for flower, we get a cactus.
Then we pray for butter fly, we get caterpillar.
Somehow or rather, at the end, the cactus produces beautiful flower and caterpillar transforms to a wonderful butterfly.
Yup, its a reality and not a quotation that only been heard any more.
There lots of things happened to me and I dont know how people sees it or they reluctant to see it.
Frankly, at this moment, this particular specific moment, I really, really dont like to be with my 'friends'.
As I found that there arent one.
Each and every one of them have so, so many things that I dont like, but after so long I keep it alone, still, once they knew mine, they just defected.
By which, they dont wanna listened to any of my explanation.
So, I wonder, what rumours have been going around actually?? Hmm....
People are just too cruel right?
So that's why, I really HATE people around me.
Families are excepted of course.
As the conclusion, I dont have any single friend.

But, in a bright side, my life seems to be brighter than ever.
My relationship with my fiance is really, really improving day by day.
Is it because we are getting married or is there anything else?
Its like back when our love was blooming and now, its blooming again.
Sounds just like the seasons.
Yeah...its quite true actually.
I just cant wait to be back home every week and I just cant wait to graduate.
5 months to go and time really goes slow when Im at shah alam.
When Im at Muar, I dont even realize the month is changing.
Hehe.....

So, tomorrow, Im going to mid valley for a movie.
I dont see how should I react actually. Happy? Sad? Huh!
Its all because of 1 incident I guess.
People love to bring hatred ya..
I can never trust anyone again.
Never.
Before this, I really dont like to be a hypocrite.
But now, its my choice to be a hypocrite.
Smile when I feel like crying.
Agree to what I disagree.
Crying when others cry though I feel like laughing loudly and saying "SERVES YOU RIGHT YOU, MORON!''
Haihh....what a devil u guys made me now..
Sincerely, I think, everyone is a hypocrite now.
I have negative thinking towards everybody.
People are being so sarcastic.
Even  how bad I dont wanna be with them, I need to bear the remaining 5 months.

See, how tough I am.
I never thought I am this tough but just imagine if u guys are in my shoe.
U will fall, and cry and surely will be hard for u to stand up.
Just like a people that I lived with once upon a time.
Crying in front of the others just because she cant handle a tiny little problem.
Just think what u hv done to me b4 ur saying to others what hv i done to u, bitch.

Yeah.........im satisfied now.
If only they wanna hear my explanation and a clear situation,  wont be this harsh.
Im a good girl. Im obedient. I know myself.
and I never lie.
Ur the one that hv been played by the liars, and pls dont include me in ur problems ya.

Sayang, I miss u!
How I wish to go back home and be by ur side now...
XOXO